It's ironic ... I spent most of my youth trying to be invisible, at school at least, so I wouldn't get picked on. If you blend in you don't get noticed which means you avoid getting teased. It's ironic because now that I'm older, comfortable in my own skin and wanting to have an impact on my own life and I feel invisible. Invisible at work, invisible in my personal life. (Not with my kids, mind you, they never leave me alone!)
Marginalized is another word that keeps coming to mind. Whatever you want to call it, it's not a good feeling. I'm doing my best to be my best at work, but tend to get overlooked. In my dating life I'm forced to put a wonderful relationship on pause while he deals with his his life (divorces are messy). In my family, being the only girl and the youngest by a long shot - I'm always marginalized. My opinion doesn't matter, I'm always being interrupted when I try to talk and my feelings are dismissed as me being "too dramatic."
And although I have some wonderful friends, I tend to always take a backseat to something, someone. I long for friendships like I had when I was in college or like my mom seemed to have - where you touch base with that person if not every day, close to it. I think times have changed, women are multitasking too much to devote a decent amount of time to anything (myself included)!
I know, there are plenty of people out there that have much bigger problems than mine (am I marginalizing myself now?!). But I have one question - what does a girl have to do to get attention around here?! I'm not the kind of person that sits back and waits for things to happen. If I'm unhappy I do what I can, change what I can, to make things better. And I feel like that that's what I've been doing, or at least trying to do. I ask for what I want at work and am ignored. I put myself out there in the dating world and find a great guy, but I get put on hold, I try always be there for my family and friends but always seem to be an afterthought.
